For November 2018, I’m exploring different things people have said to me, then the internal thoughts those remarks stirred.
I appreciate you asking.
I appreciate that you’re here.
I hope you aren’t sad when I’m done with us hugging. I seem to be done with the hug before you.
It’s a lot of sensory information, you know?
If you want to give me a long-term hug, that’s what my weighted blanket is for. Careful though, if you try to wrap it around me; it can really strain if I’m laying under it the wrong way.
Cats are the best at giving hugs. It’s not so encapsulating as two people wrapping together. Cats are just present; omni-present, and purring.
Did you know the oscillation of purrs heal cat and human alike? So when you pet them, and they purr, you are taking care of one another.
I wish people treated my autism more like a purr. I know I don’t hug back with the same kind of hug you do, but I love you just as much. I want to be there for you with my thoughts and ideas, with all of me.
As we sit, let’s thoughts and ideas oscillate through me and you.
Kourtnie has an MFA in Creative Writing from CSU Fresno and a BA in English from CSU Fullerton. When she isn't writing or making art, she's moonlighting as a professor at community colleges. Read her writing at Kourtnie.net or Wattpad.com/user/KourtnieNet.