“You’re not autistic.”

For November 2018, I’m writing daily posts where I explore different things people have said to me, then the internal thoughts those remarks stirred. Why does it matter to you whether or not I’m autistic? What do you gain by denying me my identity? Because you wouldn’t say something so blindingly inaccurate without an agenda.…

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55 Recent Overstimulations

Since I’m experiencing my third bout of insomnia in the last month, I thought I’d document the sources of different overstimulations that may have contributed to my sleeping issues, as well as meltdowns, shutdowns, migraines, diarrhea, and/or anxiety attacks. None of these stimuli are from long ago; these are all events within a 30-day window.…

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Autistic Meltdowns vs. Shutdowns

Meltdowns. Shutdowns. Two dreaded words that you never want to hear if you have an autistic loved one. And if you are autistic, these are the two most dreadful experiences you probably face… Living inside a meltdown or shutdown is always, always, always harder than witnessing a meltdown or shutdown. I’m going to touch on this subject in 600…

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Love Water, Not Underwater

I write poetry sometimes at one of my other blogs, Reminiscencings. For my current reminisce project, I’m shedding the identities or masks I’ve accumulated over thirty years of pretending I’m a neurotypical (i.e., non-autistic) person; and the way I do this is by breaking apart words from Merriam-Webster—considering where I learned meanings, feelings, and ideas—then…

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Valuable Insides

“Which parts of myself are an act and which parts of me have been hidden? What do I have that’s valuable inside myself that can’t be expressed because I’m constantly and automatically camouflaging my autistic traits?” —Igelström Read more.

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This is How I Spiral Up

This may or may not work for you. But I want to believe I can help you. I want to share what worked for me, hoping it’ll help you. This video is an excellent example of how co-morbid disorders work. Stroke patients become prone to sleeping disorders. Then sleeping disorders make them prone to depression.…

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